Have you ever felt that somewhere deep inside you, there is another person in there? The one who is enough? Not the thin one, good one, successful one, versions we’ve been taught we should be.
But rather the wild one, the misfit, the creative one?
As you’ve been reading along, you know this is a point of contention for me. Bridging the gap between where you are and where you want to be is where my main interest lies.
Underneath all the rules and drama and frustration and boredom this truest part of you does exists. Not that she is PERFECT. She is just a perfect version of YOU…waiting to be acknowledged. She urges you to create the dreams you have or the make the art you want to make or write the story you want to write.
She’s all pent up inside about ready to implode. When will it be her time? When will you listen to the ever-growing voice inside that wants to be heard?
Daily Quick Collage ~ Linda Hough 2017
You’ll experience this uneasiness in many ways. Forcing yourself to do what you think you have to do. Looking toward another direction with longing but not having the courage to go there. Thinking that you don’t have what it takes to live this truest version of yourself.
Ok, maybe it’s just me.
But I think not, because this is an archetypal struggle that has heroic overtones. Or to be more correct for these purposes, heroine overtones. Because the feminine version of the hero’s journey is different. More to be said on this at a later time.
Yesterday, I ripped the cover right off the layer of confusion that was holding me back. We all have our favorite forms of sabotage and resistance. Confusion was mine.
Daily Quick Collage ~ Linda Hough 2017
I had a huge insight about what I’m doing and how it is all wrong. Well, the direction I am going has always been right but I was STILL trying to fit myself into a box I don’t belong in. Some thought forms are so entrenched, they keep circling back around and around until they can be set aside for good.
When layers are ripped away, that is not always so elegant.
Here is the image that materialized for me in today’s quick collage session.
I’m not going to lie. This scares me.
Daily Quick Collage ~ Linda Hough 2017
I’ve been semi-obsessed with Joan of Arc forever. I’ve also been pushing her story away forever. It does not end well. I’m not surprised she made an appearance because I recently discovered that she is an example of a healthy INFP. This is my Myers-Briggs type. I did some research, found this image and printed it out yesterday. I did NOT expect to use it in my journaling today. But voilà here she is.
If you are wondering how a simple daily collage can have such an impact, there will be more on this later too. Much more.
I’m excited (and just a little bit nervous) to see what shows up as my own creative energy takes the lead in the story that is my life. And the work that is my dream.
Daily Quick Collage ~ Linda Hough 2017